10:10 p.m. - 2010-06-14
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wow, Kelsey... Just... WOW!!!
I knew u felt like that.. but it all coming in one part hit me like a brick to the face. HARD.
yes, I know I have been telling you you love him all along. But dang.. u got it bad.That's kinda depressing. Cause I got it bad too. for Steven. idk what to do.
He told me we needed a break in the relationship. sadly. Which means it's screwed. He doesn't feel it like I do.... and it HURTS!
We had a txting convo a lil bit ago. I told him I was sad, scared and confused.
Steven: why?
me: Us.. I really donna what to do.
S: What do you want to do?
M: I wanna be back together, but u need time to chill... I'm just really scared everything's gonna fall apart.
S: Ya it might
M:Which sucks, cause I'll get my heart broken again... and I can tell ur bored and dont like me as much anymore
S: yeah, but I also feel bad at the same time... I really wish we could be best friends though
M: :(( so ur breaking up with me again... And I get hurt.I'll be friends.. But I'll always love you.
S: No, I'm not breaking up with you yet... I just don't know what to do...
M: Key word... yet,Look, I know. U like Sam P. I think you like her more than you like me. idk what to do either.. Cause I know how I feel and that you don't feel it as strong. :/ So yeah
S: I'm NOT breaking up with you for Sam! I just don't feel the connection anymore.
M: That's what you said last summer. :l
S: I did? And did I ever go out with her? NO...
M: Yes. You did say that. Actually Ymari (see after convo) said it and you repeated it and laughed. And she said yall did go out.
S: When? We really didnt go out?
M: Who? U and Sam? Or me and you?
M: *sigh*.... IDK.....
M: Look... We really need to talk about this, cause I'm going crazy.
S: I'm at the movies right now. We will talk later.
M: okay.
(YMARI IS THE FRIEND THAT WAS ON THE PHONE LAST SUMMER)
I really Don't know what to do, or to say. On one hand, I'M PISSED! He said He wouldn't break my heart ever again, and that he would prove Kelsey, and jenny, and Taylor, and EVERYONE ELSE in the entire eighth grade who knew about what happened. He said all this stuff, and I... JUST DONT KNOWWW!!!!!!
On the other.... I love him.... ALOT...
HELLLPPPPPP!!!!!!!
